It has come to my attention that all of my posts have one major concern – Me. I write about My feelings, My desires, My fears, My angst – pretty much, if it has to do with Me, I’ll write about it. I’ve written about childhood humiliations, mid-life crises, relationship joys and woes, every kind of female “issue”, and parenthood challenges – all from behind the very specific Kathleen-focused pinwheel of topics.
Honestly, I did not set out to write a blog with an all-you-can-eat buffet of my emotional stew du jour. I have some indication that I am a bit of a decent writer with a solid ability to express myself in ways that engage other people. I intended to marry this expandable skill with the numerous social, economic, cultural and world-wide issues that face the human race, thereby bringing about a crisp commentary from one of the ordinary class of humans – middle-middle class working woman with a husband, two kids, a dog and a mortgage.
Instead, I have a series of blog posts filled with metaphorical anecdotes concerning my hormones, insecurities and day dreams.
Is there something wrong with this?
I must have decided there is not since I continue to write about these things that fill my ever shrinking cognizant capacity.
Clearly, even in this confessional opus, my number one concentration is My inability to write about someone other than Me!
However, before I toss my garbley goulash into the pig trough and start writing about other subjects where I have some great authority like the best ways to get cinnamon gum out of a washing machine, or how to collect old baby food jars until they overflow into the outdoor shed, or remain at a job you don’t like for nearly a decade without literally jumping out the window – I should like to state that I don’t believe any one of us can truly write about anything other than our own experience.
Even if I were to write about the life and times of Mickey Mouse, it would be colored with my intense personal impression of said rat based upon everything that has occurred in my life up to this point. Suppose Mr. Mouse and I differ in opinion on how to bring about peace without using violence? Would it then be possible to write objectively about Mr. Mouse’s career in which he engaged his country in not one, but two extended wars?
Maybe a better human than me could, but I am pretty sure I have given up trying to be objective. (Especially where Mickey is concerned – don’t even get me started on a grown mouse who has a clubhouse full of perky sidekicks who only know how to sing his praises.)
So, I’ve decided – if anyone is 1) actually reading this and 2) in a place of even remotely caring about it – that I am going to continue to write about what I am faced with each moment on a cellular level – Me.
After all, stew is a meal in itself!